update definitely needed!

so, my last post was completely upsetting and miserable, i really need to update it. things are doing good since i was last here. Emily is doing really well, and that kid adapts to any situation like a pro! she is now all about reading the labels and such. she is such an organized little kid, this is going to be no problem for her. she has been totally spoiled (she got guitar hero, new clothes, and tons of attention)...although, she's always spoiled, but she's worth it! i love that kid so much, and i hate needles so much, it's just hard for me to picture having to deal with that every day. but everything is going well, and her only worry is that she's going to put on weight (which she really needs anyways).

okay, so on to other things. job is going really well. my only issue is that when it is slow, i really don't have much to do. i think i surprised the boss today by offering to organize the storage room (boxes everywhere...it's scary). but it's good, and i'm kind of excited to get at it!

foot is doing well! i've actually been running for the last week! it's been great!

life is pretty good at the moment...there are still some wrinkles to iron out, but i'm working on them...not really sure what it is i want or where those wrinkles are located, but i'll find them and work on it.

hope that all you people are doing great!

dying inside...

i don't know what to do...there's noting i can do...one of the most amazing people i know is sick, and there's nothing i can do about it. my baby sister, who lights up every room she is in, who sees good in everyone and everything, who is brilliant and amazing and beautiful, has been diagnosed with diabetes...and i can't make it all better for her. i'm hurting so much for what she has to go through, and i wish i could do it for her. she's only 12. i just want to be there for her, and i can't even do that.

and i feel so selfish for hurting so much, cuz it's her that's going through this...i can't deal with this right now...i just want to go to calgary...

changes...

wow, it feels like my life has been turned upside down. since i broke my foot (exactly a month ago) carolyn has moved to europe, i got a new job (which i start tomorrow), i got a new roomate (who moves in tomorrow), i feel like i've moved every item in my house around at least twice, haven't worked for a month, and my head is just spinning right now cuz i'm getting back into the swing of things, and have to be at work by 7:30 tomorrow morning. i've also made major changes on what i want to do with my future, and feel like i'm actually moving towards something again.

now Joie says she has to find me a man so i don't become the crazy cat lady...lol...i don't need a man...lately i don't know what to think about them. looking at my two best friends, and everyone around me, getting married and having families...it's kind of intense...and everyone knows that i'm not the best with commitment...ya, it's a long story...

so, i can no longer be on the computer 24 hours a day, since i don't have a pc at work (although i have a mighty nice green screen). i'm sorry to all those people out there that i have kept entertained for the last month...i will now be the late night surfer...not sure how i'm gonna keep up with you all now...keep me posted on everything!!! i will miss you!!!

okay...gotta go get some sleep, i actually have to wake up early tomorrow...

Lindsay