back to work..

guess what? i got the job at the place i wanted to work!!! i'm so excited. and i'm going to try and go back to work this weekend at the pub that i'm on injury leave from at the moment, see if i can handle a shift! i'm so excited!!! i can't believe i haven't worked in almost a month...it doesn't feel that long...so yes, it seems that things are settling into place, to allow me to set other plans into motion...

and that's all i have to say for now...woo hoo!!!!

evolving...

so, apparently as you grow, your plans should grow with you...and sometimes that means change. i would think that i, of all people, would be okay with change...i've been all over the place (well, all over Alberta) and i pick up and leave easily. but there is one plan that i seem to be putting off and putting off...and maybe it's time to accept that i need to maybe change that plan. i've been told that i'm putting my life on hold because of these plans, but i've been putting the plans on hold because of life, so really i'm not going anywhere or doing anything, and i'm becoming depressed because i feel like i'm not doing anything with my life...which right now, i'm not. anyways, that's all i have to say about that for the moment...wish me luck out there, hopefully i get the job i am waiting for...i should know by tuesday...

(adding this) a quote i found while reading last night:
Will considered what to do. When you choose one way out of many, all the ways you don't take are snuffed out like candles, as if they'd never existed. At the moment all Will's choices existed at once. But to keep them all in existence meant doing nothing. He had to choose, after all.
- The Amber Spyglass

and my boss at the pub is the best. i know that i complain, because working with her can be stressful, but she has the biggest heart! i told her that i'm going to be working in an office, but i would love to stay working with her, and she just told me to let her know when i can start again. i couldn't imagine not working there right now!

and it looks like i didn't kill my tv after all...lol...my mom is so funny! she was here this weekend picking up carolyn's stuff, and we stopped at walmart for groceries, and she kept trying to buy me stuff...she is so cute! and when she read that i killed my tv, she called me immediately to see if she could get me a new one! i have got to have the best mom in the world! she spoils us all too much, and has an ability for unconditional love that i've never seen in anyone.

my foot is still healing. i hit it as i was trying to step over something today...it was kinda painful...but i don't think i did any more damage to it...i hope not...stupid foot! i just wanna go back to work...

so, i have a new bedroom, and i love it! right now it's a mess, and i have tons to put away, but it's all set up, and it's bigger than the other one! i just love it! i have way too much stuff!!! and now i have to clean and set up the other room for my new roomate! i can't believe she is going to be here in a week! time just flies! and i can't believe i haven't worked in three weeks now! i'm starting to get used to this whole not working thing....i really need to find myself a rich husband, then i could enjoy all this time off, instead of stressing about money, and not being able to go out or to the gym or anything...

well, i've talked enough, and mostly about good things (i hope you are happy...you know who you are)...i hope that you all are doing great!! don't let life get you down, and as Annie says, there's always tomorrow!!!

laters

all right, all right...

it has been brought to my attention that i'm being too negative...and now that i read back, my first two posts are a bit of a downer...

i don't want you people out there to think i'm living in a world of self pity, because that is the last thing i am doing...i like to vent every once in a while...it helps me think things out, and move past them. and i'd just like to say that i appreciate you listening!

okay...so...need to find something good to tell you about...well, i have an interview this week for an office job...hopefully things go well, cuz i could really use a paycheck...and i think my foot is healing nicely (knock on wood) so hopefully i can start moving around more. i have the bestest friends in the world who worry way too much about me...but i'm not gonna complain too much cuz i love it!

i had a great weekend! friday night was the live version of the view at Joie's house (still can't decide who was Barbara Walters...)...saturday went wedding dress shopping with my sister, and then to the post mexico party at Gregg and Krista's (so much fun!) and dinner at my sister's house on sunday night! it seems i get busier and busier...and still accomplish nothing at all...oh well...

it's been a long weekend and i'm tired...so good night to you all!!

boycotting

valentines day...yuck! this time of year always reminds me how stupid this time of year is. why must i be reminded that i'm alone? it's bad enough that i don't have anyone to cuddle with while watching tv, no one to bring me flowers, or just be there when i need them, but now there is a whole day to point it out?!?

yes i'm whining, and i know that my friends would tell me that i'm being ridiculous. but guess what, they aren't alone at home on an evening that people are supposed to share with the one that loves them. and neither one of them (not that i only have two friends, just that i only have two in mind at the moment) has been alone on this day in a very long time. me, on the other hand, this is an annual occurance for me...

okay, enough of the self pity...i will leave you with a bit of creativeness, since i'm trying to do more writing...tell me what you think...unless you think it's lame, then keep your comments to yourself...

Aimless wandering of the lonely adventuress
through the dark and tangled jungle
longing for sunshine
the hunters stealing pieces of her soul
Tantalizing rays of sunlight sprinkle the ground
fleeting promises of life pushing her foward
a glimpse of an oasis
like trying to go home but not knowing the way

and that's all i have for now...dumb i know, but it's a start.

goodbye for now

the beginning...

well, here i am, making my first post. not much to report at this time, but hopefully things will get more exciting.

i'm still suffering from a broken foot. i can't work till the end of the month, and i'm pretty sure that i have all my bills covered till then, but i'm not sure what i'm going to do after that. i have an interview next week with a staffing company, and hopefully that goes well. i'm going to apply for ei, but i will need my current boss to write up a record of employment, and apparently she's busy...oh well, i think i've saved all my pay slips, so those should do as well...just have to find them all from all the places i keep them...i'm so organized...

my sister leaves for Europe today. we had our ups and downs, but i will miss her. my new roomate seems eager to communicate with me, and find out about me. i hope things go well. she is young, but seems to have a good head on her shoulders. i guess i will find out.

i need to get myself together, and get my application in for teaching in Korea. i'm sick of people asking when i'm going, what my plans are. i keep pushing the date farther and farther away. i just need to do it.

anyways, i could ramble on and on, but that's all i'm going to say for now. i might actually keep this up, we will see...

later