what a weekend...

where to start...well, let's start at the beginning of the weekend...

friday: went to work, packed up everything i had gotten together for camping, asked the roommate if she had any plans for the weekend and she said no (remember this for later, it's important), and drove to calgary. spent and evening with my honey running around spending a ton of money.

saturday: woke up early to get a few final things and we were off to camping. we find the place, settle in (quite quickly too, we are a very efficient pair), and start a fire. it was a great afternoon! the sun was shining and we were actually camping, and alone together. we played some catch (where Jon misses one of my throws and catches the ball in the chest), had a few drinks, and mostly just enjoyed each others company! Jon got stung, but fortunately it was only a fly by, and so he didn't react too badly. his arm swelled and he felt off, but no issues with breathing and no trips to emergency, so that was good. it got cloudy and rainy so we played some cards, had a nap, and went back out by the fire when the rain let up. had a great dinner of bison burgers, and headed to bed.

sunday: woke up to find it had rained for most of the night. Jon didn't sleep so well because of his arm, and it was a cold night so of course i didn't sleep so well. we got up and decided that we wanted to cook breakfast, but first we needed to put up a tarp, and get more firewood. we put up the tarp (again, very efficient) and started a fire, got more wood, and proceeded in cooking. tried to use the hand-me-down hibatchi...didn't go so well, so just put the pans directly over the fire, worked much better! i think i'm missing something with the hibatchi, but i will figure it out. so, cooking breakfast, and everything is coming along well, and Jon picks up the sausages off the fire in the metal roasting rack, and his hand slips up the handle and he burns himself...not good...not a big burn, but a painful one on his fingers. so that sucks, but breakfast was great! we sit around the fire for a while, Jon taught me to play crib...almost beat him, but i showed him who's boss at crazy eight count down! and apparently i become a different person when i play cards...i don't believe him, he's just sad cuz he lost...lol...and i'm not competitive at all...so in the afternoon Jon has a nap and i decide to read for a while. it seemed like it was getting nice outside so i went and read in the sun. it was great! when Jon woke up he still wasn't feeling so great (because of the sting) so we went for a little walk to see if fresh air would work. then it looked like the clouds were rolling in again, and Jon wasn't feeling good, so we packed up. went back to his house and hung out with the roommates.

monday: day of rest! what a nice day! Brandon made breakfast, watched some movies, and hung out with my baby all day!

tuesday: go to random doctors appointments in two different cities and come back to lethbridge to find out my roommate moved out over the weekend...now i'm sitting here confused, wondering if i did something that would make her scared to mention to me that she wanted to move out. not sure why she wouldn't tell me. i specifically asked if she had any plans, and she lied to my face! we didn't sign an agreement or anything, i'm not a pushy roommate, i thought we were getting along well...i guess i was deluded...

and i found out i might have irritable bowl syndrome, which is brought on by stress, which i'm guessing is right cuz i'm totally not feeling well, and have a bit of a fever...just need to let it go. whatever. just don't know why she would just get up and leave.

tomorrow: i have to convince my boss to let me go for two more appointments (which i'm not looking forward to, he's been really good about giving me days off, and i'm starting to push my luck...and i'm going to need another day off in september, october, and november...this wouldn't be a problem if they would just give me vacation days from the start)...but hopefully this will be the end of it, and i will feel better. i have to get food for treats for two birthday's at work and get everyone to sign the cards. and i have to catch up on the paperwork i missed today. not that it will take me long, but it has to be done. oh well, no lunch break tomorrow...

okay, i should probably go to bed...maybe read for a while, that will get my mind off things!

hope you all had a great long weekend. sorry for all the venting messages, they will get better i hope. next weekend is birthday celebrations, and i am going to relax!

night!

Lindsay

more pet peeves...

okay, so i know i went on a bit of a rant last time...but i just have two things to add...

caller id...just because you received a phone call from a number doesn't mean that the person on the other end was actually trying to contact you. if they don't leave a message, then it was probably not that important. the most ridiculous thing in the world is when i get a phone call from someone saying "um, someone there called me, do you know why?" of course i don't know! there are 15 people i work with, and most of them are clowns (okay, most of them are boys, and that explains everything) and they may have called you, and they may have accidentally dialled the wrong number, but if they didn't leave a message and you don't recognize the number, then chances are nobody on this end of the phone wants to talk to you! so don't call!!!

and my last one is that if i page a phone call for you, and you don't pick up, but the caller hangs up before i have a chance to get their name or take any sort of message, then i probably don't know who it is. if you ask me if they left a message, and i say the hung up before i had a chance to ask, don't get mad at me for them not having any patience. it's not my fault! i'm keeping track of the calls coming in and people aren't waiting forever to hear a human voice, so if they can't wait for me to come back and say you are busy, that is their problem, not mine!

okay, i'm finished ranting...lol, i know i know, it's all petty stuff, but it does get to a person. it's a good thing i have a short memory, and get over stuff fast!

and Joie, just to let you know, i finally finished my taxes...and it took me all of 30 minutes...i know, i procrastinate too much sometimes, but that's just the way i am...and you love me for it!

well, i'm working way to much, and not sleeping nearly enough, and trying to be somewhat healthy (okay, thinking about trying to be somewhat healthy), and trying to save some money, and trying to come up with some small but amazing trip to take Jon on for august long weekend, because he deserves a break and i love him and i want us to have a little vacation for the two of us. just got the best email from my little sister who is living in Ireland. i'm still completely jealous of her, but at the same time i don't know if i could handle the crazy life she is living. i would definitely not get as much enjoyment out of it as she is! but i'm so proud of her, and she's going to have memories that will last a lifetime!

and i'm reading my crazy long books again. i like them so much! it's so hard to put them down. i wonder if Joie's mom would be willing to part with them for a while...i know that she finds them a little overwhelming...but i love every second. i am a lot like Jon in what i like to read...he always feels like a geek when trying to explain his video game to me, so this weekend i sat him down and started to explain this series that i'm reading, and now i know how he feels, cuz i felt like a comlete dork myself. but if he liked reading, this is something that he would totally enjoy! it would be so neat if someone was to make a movie out of these books, but they would be a million hours long...for each book...and there are 10 or 11 books in the series right now...ya, i don't think that's going to happen. i'm also watching the complete star wars set right now...i'm on movie #5. i'm a geek, i know. at least i'm willing to admit it.

i've been looking into real estate in calgary. just to see what's out there. won't be looking for anything seriously till at least the winter...probably december or january. i know that i told my boss i would stay till march...but i don't know if i can last that long...every weekend when i have to say goodbye to Jon and to my friends and family it gets harder and harder...i don't know what's different, but maybe it's just that i'm in calgary a lot more now and there is way too much to do and way too many people to see in such a short time. and i miss Jon so much. everytime something happens i want to tell him, and when i'm sleeping i search for him on the other side of the bed. i want to be able to enjoy a weekend without having to worry about the travel time. i don't get to rest on the weekends cuz i'm trying to fit a whole week into two days (and sometimes only one day). i don't know...i'll keep you all posted...wish i would just win the lottery or something...

well, i'm gonna go read or something...just relax...have to prepare myself for this weekend...working thursday friday saturday and sunday at oj's (including the monday to friday at eecol) and working a double shift on saturday...it's gonna be a long weekend, but probably very good for my wallet, so i can't complain.

later y'all!! love ya!

Lindsay

pet peeves...

okay, so this may not be a pleasant post, but i need to rant.

what is it with people??? maybe it's just me, but there are things that are driving me absolutely batty these days!

first of all, people who repeat themselves. and not just once, not twice, at least 4 or 5 times! it's like they are a child trying to get the attention of an adult! for children it is understandable, sometimes they need to repeat themselves to be heard, they are just little people trying to make their mark on the world. but when you are an adult, it just sounds desperate! i feel like shouting, i heard you the first time! even when i walk away the repetition follows me...i agreed the first 4 times, do you think i'm going to change my mind?

pet peeve #2: people who go through all the stuff on my desk! i know that i'm just a receptionist, and that i don't make as much as everyone else or are as important, but it is technically my desk, and the stuff on top of it is the stuff i am working with! don't touch! don't go through my inbox, or the other files underneath my inbox that have nothing to do with you! i can't stand it when people do this, what the heck??? i don't go through the stuff on their desks! i don't care if you think it has something to do with you, or if your name appears on the item in which you want to look at...ask me!!! i will explain it to you, or ask you about it!

pet peeve #3: people who sit at my desk, use my phone, and my computer, while i am standing behind them waiting to use my desk, phone, and computer! i don't sit at your computer and use your phone and take up your space when you are trying to work! i don't understand...maybe i create too much of an attachment to inanimate things...

pet peeve #4: this one doesn't have a title, but i do have an explanation...i'm standing in line at the store yesterday, and there are three people in front of me. the guy at the front is paying, the second guy has his stuff on the belt, and the guy in front of me is holding his stuff...now, this doesn't make sense to me...so i'm standing there, unable to decide if i should put my stuff on the belt or not. my concern is that once the second guy's stuff starts to get scanned and put through, my stuff is going to shoot to the front, and the clerk is going to either think that my stuff belongs to the guy in front of me, or that i'm with the guy in front of me (yuck!). he finally realizes that maybe he should put his stuff on at the last moment before all my stuff goes flying past him, and i realize that the guy behind me isn't putting his stuff on the belt! and there are at least two people behind him...i don't understand...

pet peeve #5: people who drive across parking lots without paying attention (not down the lanes, but actually across the stalls). there are lines painted on the cement for a reason! they just go flying through with no thought to the fact that someone might just plow into them at any moment because they are idiots and have no clue as to how this whole driving thing works (and i'm not even going to start on my issue with bad drivers, cuz this would turn into a novel).

okay, i should probably stop my whining. i just had to get that off my chest. i'm sure there are more...

i'm excited for the weekend! a big hike and the stampede!! and i might even do my taxes this weekend...lol...i should probably do that...

okay, well, this is just my lunch break, so i should probably get back to work...

later y'all!

i think i'm growing up...

okay, first of all, i just had a great weekend!!! celebrating cathy's birthday with a day at shakers family fun center, and then a fabulous dinner at Bolero...it was so good!!! and having dinner with my mom and her boyfriend and Jon. it was such a good evening. i really think my mom is finally warming up to the idea of me and Jon together. i knew that she would love him as much as i do once she gave him a chance. he is so amazing, and he loves me so much. it wasn't going to be long until she accepted him. and now she's doing the girlfriend's mom thing and asking him to help out with stuff around the house. and he loves it!

okay, so...me, finally growing up...this whole relationship thing is like a whole new world. i really never understood how a relationship could be like this. i've seen the people around me in their relationships, and can't understand what it was for them to be together, even when they were upset at each other. but still these couples have worked out their issues and are happy together. and it all seemed so ridiculous to me until now. even though i'm still scared, i'm also excited. looking forward to the future is something new to me, and some days it seems to consume me. living so far away is practically torture. that is what Jon said the other day, and it pains me to know that i'm causing that hurt. i know it won't be forever, and i'm sure that i won't be staying in Lethbridge until March. i just want to be able to come home to him at the end of a day of work, and cook dinner together, and be able to do seperate things on the weekend and not feel guilty because it's cutting into the short time that we have together.

and we've been making so many plans. i'm still feeling guilty that i'm taking up all his time, but he keeps telling me that he enjoys every second. well, i guess that if he's not going to complain i should just accept it. i am going to try to make more time for us to spend with brandon and hopefully go and visit his mom and his sister.

well, i should probably get some sleep. i'm finally feeling better and i should probably try to stay that way...lol...goodnight to all you out in blogger land, hope my blog didn't put you to sleep, i know it's not that exciting...

later!

the secret life of the american teenager

this is the title of a new show coming out, with Molly Ringwald acting in it! she doesn't look very old in the preview, but she must be getting up there...i'm very interested in seeing it...tuesday night on abc...someone remind me! Joie, i leave that to you!

well, i'm starting to feel a little better. still pretty tired, but trying to stay up past 7! yay!

watching trading moms...i love this show...so much drama! it's awesome!

can't wait to go to calgary on friday! wanna see my man, and relax, and spend time with my family and friends. i really need to move back to Calgary. it would make all this so much easier.

okay, well, i think i have used up my energy for the day...but this is two posts in a few short days...so you all should be proud of me! lol...i am!

goodnight all...sweet dreams!

waiting...

okay okay, i'm putting up a post...geez...*giggle*



so, i'm just sitting here waiting for my boyfriend (that's right, i said boyfriend) to show up and take care of me.



life has been pretty hectic since the last time i was on here...so i guess i'll fill you all in...let's see, i started dating Jon, and i have no complaints! he is so amazing to me, and i can actually see a future for us...i actually want a future for us! he is very good at saying all the cheezy stuff that makes my heart melt, but with his words, he also proves how he feels by how he treats me, and how he acts. i have always felt that in my previous relationships i was pretending...



oops, i think i hear his truck...i'll be back...



yay...i'm so excited!!!!

.....

okay, so it's now the next day...and less than 24 hours later he is gone :( i wish it could have been longer, we don't seem to have enough time together...but he does have a big test tomorrow, and he has to go check in on his roomates dogs...

i can't wait until the day i move back to calgary. to be closer to everyone and not have to book time in for everyone, it will be amazing.

well, i guess i just have to make do with where i am right now. hey, i just got new couches! and they are so cute, and much more comfortable than my old, ugly as sin couch. and now i have more seating for if i have guests!

i have been sick for the last week...poor Jon had to deal with my sniffling, coughing, oh poor me whining while he was here...but i did warn him before he came...he wanted to come take care of me...he is so sweet.

not sure how long my job at original joe's is going to last...i called in sick for both my shifts this weekend (not cuz Jon was in town...i'm really sick...) and i've booked off next weekend...and the weekend after....and the weekend after...oops...oh well, not sure if i want two jobs right now. the extra money is really nice, and i do like working there, but i feel so bad booking off so much time...

well, that's about it i guess...i'm really boring...i'm gonna go finish watching the movies that we rented all by myself...the sweet girlie movies...hmmm, i think i'm making a connection...lol, just joking...

hope you are all having a great summer! thank goodness for sunshine!

later!

hey stranger

so, i used to surf others blogs to see what they were up to, and frowned when there were no recent updates...and now here i am, with almost a month going by since my last post...oops...

well, life is doing really good! amazing in fact!!! things are going great, and sometimes i'm not sure that it's all real. hopefully one of these days it sinks in...lol...

job is going great! i love it there. everyone is so nice to me! i hope that i'm doing good...some days i feel like i'm useless, but i guess that's the role of the receptionist.

ummm....my friends are amazing! so supportive!

ummm...family is doing great! my little sister turned 21 this week...i feel so old! and she's working in an irish pub, in ireland!!! i'm so jealous! but happy where i am...can't wait to travel once i finally grow up...oh wait, i'm already travelling...i guess that i never need to grow up!!! yay!!!

roomate is doing great! and we have a temporary cat for 2 months...kitty sitting for my sister. it's been okay...the cat is driving me crazy though....i've never seen a cat more desperate for attention! he's literally under my feet all the time, or cuddled up to my side, or meowing to me at the bathroom door...he's crazy! Cathy says he's french...well, i'm beginning to agree!

and that's about all i have to say at the moment, cuz i'm tired (worked both jobs yesterday, and tonight is my resting night...in which i'm cleaning, doing laundry, and trying to play with the cat so he doesn't feel so unloved...). hope you are all doing amazing out there!

Lindsay

update definitely needed!

so, my last post was completely upsetting and miserable, i really need to update it. things are doing good since i was last here. Emily is doing really well, and that kid adapts to any situation like a pro! she is now all about reading the labels and such. she is such an organized little kid, this is going to be no problem for her. she has been totally spoiled (she got guitar hero, new clothes, and tons of attention)...although, she's always spoiled, but she's worth it! i love that kid so much, and i hate needles so much, it's just hard for me to picture having to deal with that every day. but everything is going well, and her only worry is that she's going to put on weight (which she really needs anyways).

okay, so on to other things. job is going really well. my only issue is that when it is slow, i really don't have much to do. i think i surprised the boss today by offering to organize the storage room (boxes everywhere...it's scary). but it's good, and i'm kind of excited to get at it!

foot is doing well! i've actually been running for the last week! it's been great!

life is pretty good at the moment...there are still some wrinkles to iron out, but i'm working on them...not really sure what it is i want or where those wrinkles are located, but i'll find them and work on it.

hope that all you people are doing great!

dying inside...

i don't know what to do...there's noting i can do...one of the most amazing people i know is sick, and there's nothing i can do about it. my baby sister, who lights up every room she is in, who sees good in everyone and everything, who is brilliant and amazing and beautiful, has been diagnosed with diabetes...and i can't make it all better for her. i'm hurting so much for what she has to go through, and i wish i could do it for her. she's only 12. i just want to be there for her, and i can't even do that.

and i feel so selfish for hurting so much, cuz it's her that's going through this...i can't deal with this right now...i just want to go to calgary...

changes...

wow, it feels like my life has been turned upside down. since i broke my foot (exactly a month ago) carolyn has moved to europe, i got a new job (which i start tomorrow), i got a new roomate (who moves in tomorrow), i feel like i've moved every item in my house around at least twice, haven't worked for a month, and my head is just spinning right now cuz i'm getting back into the swing of things, and have to be at work by 7:30 tomorrow morning. i've also made major changes on what i want to do with my future, and feel like i'm actually moving towards something again.

now Joie says she has to find me a man so i don't become the crazy cat lady...lol...i don't need a man...lately i don't know what to think about them. looking at my two best friends, and everyone around me, getting married and having families...it's kind of intense...and everyone knows that i'm not the best with commitment...ya, it's a long story...

so, i can no longer be on the computer 24 hours a day, since i don't have a pc at work (although i have a mighty nice green screen). i'm sorry to all those people out there that i have kept entertained for the last month...i will now be the late night surfer...not sure how i'm gonna keep up with you all now...keep me posted on everything!!! i will miss you!!!

okay...gotta go get some sleep, i actually have to wake up early tomorrow...

Lindsay

back to work..

guess what? i got the job at the place i wanted to work!!! i'm so excited. and i'm going to try and go back to work this weekend at the pub that i'm on injury leave from at the moment, see if i can handle a shift! i'm so excited!!! i can't believe i haven't worked in almost a month...it doesn't feel that long...so yes, it seems that things are settling into place, to allow me to set other plans into motion...

and that's all i have to say for now...woo hoo!!!!

evolving...

so, apparently as you grow, your plans should grow with you...and sometimes that means change. i would think that i, of all people, would be okay with change...i've been all over the place (well, all over Alberta) and i pick up and leave easily. but there is one plan that i seem to be putting off and putting off...and maybe it's time to accept that i need to maybe change that plan. i've been told that i'm putting my life on hold because of these plans, but i've been putting the plans on hold because of life, so really i'm not going anywhere or doing anything, and i'm becoming depressed because i feel like i'm not doing anything with my life...which right now, i'm not. anyways, that's all i have to say about that for the moment...wish me luck out there, hopefully i get the job i am waiting for...i should know by tuesday...

(adding this) a quote i found while reading last night:
Will considered what to do. When you choose one way out of many, all the ways you don't take are snuffed out like candles, as if they'd never existed. At the moment all Will's choices existed at once. But to keep them all in existence meant doing nothing. He had to choose, after all.
- The Amber Spyglass

and my boss at the pub is the best. i know that i complain, because working with her can be stressful, but she has the biggest heart! i told her that i'm going to be working in an office, but i would love to stay working with her, and she just told me to let her know when i can start again. i couldn't imagine not working there right now!

and it looks like i didn't kill my tv after all...lol...my mom is so funny! she was here this weekend picking up carolyn's stuff, and we stopped at walmart for groceries, and she kept trying to buy me stuff...she is so cute! and when she read that i killed my tv, she called me immediately to see if she could get me a new one! i have got to have the best mom in the world! she spoils us all too much, and has an ability for unconditional love that i've never seen in anyone.

my foot is still healing. i hit it as i was trying to step over something today...it was kinda painful...but i don't think i did any more damage to it...i hope not...stupid foot! i just wanna go back to work...

so, i have a new bedroom, and i love it! right now it's a mess, and i have tons to put away, but it's all set up, and it's bigger than the other one! i just love it! i have way too much stuff!!! and now i have to clean and set up the other room for my new roomate! i can't believe she is going to be here in a week! time just flies! and i can't believe i haven't worked in three weeks now! i'm starting to get used to this whole not working thing....i really need to find myself a rich husband, then i could enjoy all this time off, instead of stressing about money, and not being able to go out or to the gym or anything...

well, i've talked enough, and mostly about good things (i hope you are happy...you know who you are)...i hope that you all are doing great!! don't let life get you down, and as Annie says, there's always tomorrow!!!

laters

all right, all right...

it has been brought to my attention that i'm being too negative...and now that i read back, my first two posts are a bit of a downer...

i don't want you people out there to think i'm living in a world of self pity, because that is the last thing i am doing...i like to vent every once in a while...it helps me think things out, and move past them. and i'd just like to say that i appreciate you listening!

okay...so...need to find something good to tell you about...well, i have an interview this week for an office job...hopefully things go well, cuz i could really use a paycheck...and i think my foot is healing nicely (knock on wood) so hopefully i can start moving around more. i have the bestest friends in the world who worry way too much about me...but i'm not gonna complain too much cuz i love it!

i had a great weekend! friday night was the live version of the view at Joie's house (still can't decide who was Barbara Walters...)...saturday went wedding dress shopping with my sister, and then to the post mexico party at Gregg and Krista's (so much fun!) and dinner at my sister's house on sunday night! it seems i get busier and busier...and still accomplish nothing at all...oh well...

it's been a long weekend and i'm tired...so good night to you all!!

boycotting

valentines day...yuck! this time of year always reminds me how stupid this time of year is. why must i be reminded that i'm alone? it's bad enough that i don't have anyone to cuddle with while watching tv, no one to bring me flowers, or just be there when i need them, but now there is a whole day to point it out?!?

yes i'm whining, and i know that my friends would tell me that i'm being ridiculous. but guess what, they aren't alone at home on an evening that people are supposed to share with the one that loves them. and neither one of them (not that i only have two friends, just that i only have two in mind at the moment) has been alone on this day in a very long time. me, on the other hand, this is an annual occurance for me...

okay, enough of the self pity...i will leave you with a bit of creativeness, since i'm trying to do more writing...tell me what you think...unless you think it's lame, then keep your comments to yourself...

Aimless wandering of the lonely adventuress
through the dark and tangled jungle
longing for sunshine
the hunters stealing pieces of her soul
Tantalizing rays of sunlight sprinkle the ground
fleeting promises of life pushing her foward
a glimpse of an oasis
like trying to go home but not knowing the way

and that's all i have for now...dumb i know, but it's a start.

goodbye for now

the beginning...

well, here i am, making my first post. not much to report at this time, but hopefully things will get more exciting.

i'm still suffering from a broken foot. i can't work till the end of the month, and i'm pretty sure that i have all my bills covered till then, but i'm not sure what i'm going to do after that. i have an interview next week with a staffing company, and hopefully that goes well. i'm going to apply for ei, but i will need my current boss to write up a record of employment, and apparently she's busy...oh well, i think i've saved all my pay slips, so those should do as well...just have to find them all from all the places i keep them...i'm so organized...

my sister leaves for Europe today. we had our ups and downs, but i will miss her. my new roomate seems eager to communicate with me, and find out about me. i hope things go well. she is young, but seems to have a good head on her shoulders. i guess i will find out.

i need to get myself together, and get my application in for teaching in Korea. i'm sick of people asking when i'm going, what my plans are. i keep pushing the date farther and farther away. i just need to do it.

anyways, i could ramble on and on, but that's all i'm going to say for now. i might actually keep this up, we will see...

later