i think i'm growing up...

okay, first of all, i just had a great weekend!!! celebrating cathy's birthday with a day at shakers family fun center, and then a fabulous dinner at Bolero...it was so good!!! and having dinner with my mom and her boyfriend and Jon. it was such a good evening. i really think my mom is finally warming up to the idea of me and Jon together. i knew that she would love him as much as i do once she gave him a chance. he is so amazing, and he loves me so much. it wasn't going to be long until she accepted him. and now she's doing the girlfriend's mom thing and asking him to help out with stuff around the house. and he loves it!

okay, so...me, finally growing up...this whole relationship thing is like a whole new world. i really never understood how a relationship could be like this. i've seen the people around me in their relationships, and can't understand what it was for them to be together, even when they were upset at each other. but still these couples have worked out their issues and are happy together. and it all seemed so ridiculous to me until now. even though i'm still scared, i'm also excited. looking forward to the future is something new to me, and some days it seems to consume me. living so far away is practically torture. that is what Jon said the other day, and it pains me to know that i'm causing that hurt. i know it won't be forever, and i'm sure that i won't be staying in Lethbridge until March. i just want to be able to come home to him at the end of a day of work, and cook dinner together, and be able to do seperate things on the weekend and not feel guilty because it's cutting into the short time that we have together.

and we've been making so many plans. i'm still feeling guilty that i'm taking up all his time, but he keeps telling me that he enjoys every second. well, i guess that if he's not going to complain i should just accept it. i am going to try to make more time for us to spend with brandon and hopefully go and visit his mom and his sister.

well, i should probably get some sleep. i'm finally feeling better and i should probably try to stay that way...lol...goodnight to all you out in blogger land, hope my blog didn't put you to sleep, i know it's not that exciting...

later!

the secret life of the american teenager

this is the title of a new show coming out, with Molly Ringwald acting in it! she doesn't look very old in the preview, but she must be getting up there...i'm very interested in seeing it...tuesday night on abc...someone remind me! Joie, i leave that to you!

well, i'm starting to feel a little better. still pretty tired, but trying to stay up past 7! yay!

watching trading moms...i love this show...so much drama! it's awesome!

can't wait to go to calgary on friday! wanna see my man, and relax, and spend time with my family and friends. i really need to move back to Calgary. it would make all this so much easier.

okay, well, i think i have used up my energy for the day...but this is two posts in a few short days...so you all should be proud of me! lol...i am!

goodnight all...sweet dreams!

waiting...

okay okay, i'm putting up a post...geez...*giggle*



so, i'm just sitting here waiting for my boyfriend (that's right, i said boyfriend) to show up and take care of me.



life has been pretty hectic since the last time i was on here...so i guess i'll fill you all in...let's see, i started dating Jon, and i have no complaints! he is so amazing to me, and i can actually see a future for us...i actually want a future for us! he is very good at saying all the cheezy stuff that makes my heart melt, but with his words, he also proves how he feels by how he treats me, and how he acts. i have always felt that in my previous relationships i was pretending...



oops, i think i hear his truck...i'll be back...



yay...i'm so excited!!!!

.....

okay, so it's now the next day...and less than 24 hours later he is gone :( i wish it could have been longer, we don't seem to have enough time together...but he does have a big test tomorrow, and he has to go check in on his roomates dogs...

i can't wait until the day i move back to calgary. to be closer to everyone and not have to book time in for everyone, it will be amazing.

well, i guess i just have to make do with where i am right now. hey, i just got new couches! and they are so cute, and much more comfortable than my old, ugly as sin couch. and now i have more seating for if i have guests!

i have been sick for the last week...poor Jon had to deal with my sniffling, coughing, oh poor me whining while he was here...but i did warn him before he came...he wanted to come take care of me...he is so sweet.

not sure how long my job at original joe's is going to last...i called in sick for both my shifts this weekend (not cuz Jon was in town...i'm really sick...) and i've booked off next weekend...and the weekend after....and the weekend after...oops...oh well, not sure if i want two jobs right now. the extra money is really nice, and i do like working there, but i feel so bad booking off so much time...

well, that's about it i guess...i'm really boring...i'm gonna go finish watching the movies that we rented all by myself...the sweet girlie movies...hmmm, i think i'm making a connection...lol, just joking...

hope you are all having a great summer! thank goodness for sunshine!

later!

hey stranger

so, i used to surf others blogs to see what they were up to, and frowned when there were no recent updates...and now here i am, with almost a month going by since my last post...oops...

well, life is doing really good! amazing in fact!!! things are going great, and sometimes i'm not sure that it's all real. hopefully one of these days it sinks in...lol...

job is going great! i love it there. everyone is so nice to me! i hope that i'm doing good...some days i feel like i'm useless, but i guess that's the role of the receptionist.

ummm....my friends are amazing! so supportive!

ummm...family is doing great! my little sister turned 21 this week...i feel so old! and she's working in an irish pub, in ireland!!! i'm so jealous! but happy where i am...can't wait to travel once i finally grow up...oh wait, i'm already travelling...i guess that i never need to grow up!!! yay!!!

roomate is doing great! and we have a temporary cat for 2 months...kitty sitting for my sister. it's been okay...the cat is driving me crazy though....i've never seen a cat more desperate for attention! he's literally under my feet all the time, or cuddled up to my side, or meowing to me at the bathroom door...he's crazy! Cathy says he's french...well, i'm beginning to agree!

and that's about all i have to say at the moment, cuz i'm tired (worked both jobs yesterday, and tonight is my resting night...in which i'm cleaning, doing laundry, and trying to play with the cat so he doesn't feel so unloved...). hope you are all doing amazing out there!

Lindsay

update definitely needed!

so, my last post was completely upsetting and miserable, i really need to update it. things are doing good since i was last here. Emily is doing really well, and that kid adapts to any situation like a pro! she is now all about reading the labels and such. she is such an organized little kid, this is going to be no problem for her. she has been totally spoiled (she got guitar hero, new clothes, and tons of attention)...although, she's always spoiled, but she's worth it! i love that kid so much, and i hate needles so much, it's just hard for me to picture having to deal with that every day. but everything is going well, and her only worry is that she's going to put on weight (which she really needs anyways).

okay, so on to other things. job is going really well. my only issue is that when it is slow, i really don't have much to do. i think i surprised the boss today by offering to organize the storage room (boxes everywhere...it's scary). but it's good, and i'm kind of excited to get at it!

foot is doing well! i've actually been running for the last week! it's been great!

life is pretty good at the moment...there are still some wrinkles to iron out, but i'm working on them...not really sure what it is i want or where those wrinkles are located, but i'll find them and work on it.

hope that all you people are doing great!

dying inside...

i don't know what to do...there's noting i can do...one of the most amazing people i know is sick, and there's nothing i can do about it. my baby sister, who lights up every room she is in, who sees good in everyone and everything, who is brilliant and amazing and beautiful, has been diagnosed with diabetes...and i can't make it all better for her. i'm hurting so much for what she has to go through, and i wish i could do it for her. she's only 12. i just want to be there for her, and i can't even do that.

and i feel so selfish for hurting so much, cuz it's her that's going through this...i can't deal with this right now...i just want to go to calgary...

changes...

wow, it feels like my life has been turned upside down. since i broke my foot (exactly a month ago) carolyn has moved to europe, i got a new job (which i start tomorrow), i got a new roomate (who moves in tomorrow), i feel like i've moved every item in my house around at least twice, haven't worked for a month, and my head is just spinning right now cuz i'm getting back into the swing of things, and have to be at work by 7:30 tomorrow morning. i've also made major changes on what i want to do with my future, and feel like i'm actually moving towards something again.

now Joie says she has to find me a man so i don't become the crazy cat lady...lol...i don't need a man...lately i don't know what to think about them. looking at my two best friends, and everyone around me, getting married and having families...it's kind of intense...and everyone knows that i'm not the best with commitment...ya, it's a long story...

so, i can no longer be on the computer 24 hours a day, since i don't have a pc at work (although i have a mighty nice green screen). i'm sorry to all those people out there that i have kept entertained for the last month...i will now be the late night surfer...not sure how i'm gonna keep up with you all now...keep me posted on everything!!! i will miss you!!!

okay...gotta go get some sleep, i actually have to wake up early tomorrow...

Lindsay